We Made It All Up: The Power of Sovereign Choice

[Hamilton]

Where shall we start today? Start with something someone would like to share. Something positive, something uplifting, something that has occurred recently.

Rory, go ahead, jump on in.

[Rory]

Hey, well, I already shared this in the Telegram chat, but I got something positive. A little over a month ago, I was really sick. I started throwing up, thought I ate some bad food that morning and persisted to the next day.

I went to urgent care. They told me I had a virus, you know, just go home and hydrate and got better for a few days. Then it got worse and I went to the ER and I had real bad pain in my abdomen.

And the doctor said, did that pain get really bad and get better all of a sudden? And I go, yeah. And turns out I was walking around for about four or five days with a ruptured appendix.

Spent eight days in the hospital and yesterday makes a month since the day I went into the hospital, about three weeks since the surgery. I experienced a miracle in that I am still alive right now. I’m doing fucking fantastic.

Pain’s almost gone. It’s real rough for a couple of weeks there. But yeah, I had a lot of love from this community, a lot of love from my community here at home and pretty grateful.

It was, you know, during the week that I was sick before I went into the hospital and then for most of the time in the hospital, I wasn’t eating anything. So, it was kind of in a weird way, like it was the deepest cleansing I’ve ever been through. But now I’m kind of in this rebuilding phase.

I’m planning on doing a little brief diet with rose and get back into the plant medicine. But yeah, I’d say that’s pretty positive.

[Hamilton]

It’s super positive. Well, to the miracles of our ability to heal and medicine and surgery and hospitalization and cleansing and often, you know, big medical events can come with great awakening too. In the traditional shamanic lineages, often before great breakthrough is some kind of big transitional illness or injury, etc.

So, may this be an opportunity of great awakening and we’re super happy that you have pulled through the other side. Amazing.

Nicholas, what would you like to share?

[Nocholas]

I found a job as a mental health worker, and it’s at a place that houses at-risk youth. It’s really intense because a lot of them are like completely self-harming, suicidal, and some of them are victims to human trafficking. So super intense, but I have been bracing myself and I’m bringing Sanctuary there and I even got to teach one of the trainers the tenets of Sanctuary.

[Hamilton]

Awesome. Love it. Amazing too.

An amazing career move for you. So super stoked for you. That’s great.

[Nocholas]

Thank you.

[Carly]

Yeah. All right. Carly, come on up.

[Carly]

Hi.

[Hamilton]

Hi.

[Carly]

So good to see you all. I want to just express my gratitude for everyone. And I’ve been so busy the past couple months and it’s all been leading up to this big trip to kind of hit up a couple places to see what’s going to be new for me.

And this last week in Peru has been fucking bananas. I’m going to put more discussion in the facilitator chat about it. I was in a point where I was starting to kind of lose my edges a little bit the other day, and I reached out to everybody in the academy.

And I immediately and within the next 24 hours was just surrounded and just so held and so safe. And I haven’t been feeling safe for the last week. So, thank you guys.

I love you so much.

[Hamilton]

Amazing. You’re welcome. Thank you so much for sharing.

Asha, hello. Come on up.

[Asha]

Hey, I had a good I had a win. Me and my husband are trying to move countries not that far just to Ireland. And we’ve kind of, I kind of assumed that I wasn’t going to be able to move my job over.

I thought it wasn’t kind of, they wouldn’t want to not have me in the office, etc. So, I kind of said to my boss, I was like, okay, we’re going to be moving, going to be handing my notice in. They were like, no, we want you to stay, we can make it work.

There’s this tax law. So that was fantastic. And I feel it’s made me appreciate my highly matrixed org that I work in.

[Hamilton]

Blessings. That’s amazing. And I think it’s a really good lesson for everybody to not put hurdles in front of us in our own imagination that we don’t really know can work out.

So, we often imagine a scenario that’s not going to work and we get into it and we actually find out there are paths and to stay neutral about that and then go advocate on your behalf. Instead of in your own mind negotiating against yourself is such an important thing. So also thank you for sharing that and congratulations and good luck with the move.

That’s amazing. Gretchen?

[Gretchen]

I got my taxes done. Is that’s a win, right?

[Hamilton]

That’s a huge win.

[Gretchen]

Well, dude, I had the sale of home on there, right? And then you got those long-term capital gains. So, it was trick, man.

It was trick.

[Hamilton]

Yeah, it’s a big win. Congratulations. And, you know, 10 days early.

So that’s not bad. That’s not bad. Get that off your plate as soon as you can and embrace the realities of living in complex societies while they’re in flux.

This is never going to be a stable matrix that we live in. Humans are much too dynamic for that. So, embracing who we are in our society in a responsible way is really important.

So, kudos. All right. That’s going to take us into our lesson today.

You guys shared everything we need for our lesson today starting out. So, lesson will be quick and Q&A then will take some time, but we’re going to make this lesson really quick.

The most important thing we have as we go through our own development are the relationships and people and community that support us. You have a relationship with yourself. You have a relationship with the people that are around you, and you have a relationship with your communities that you find that you’re a part of. And then there’s a lot of people. We don’t have any idea what’s going on with them for real. We have theories in our heads about it, but we don’t really know.

And so, the people that we have in our lives are super important to us. So, as we go on this journey to really embrace the nature of community, to embrace each other, embrace our friends and family and loved ones, understand that everybody is in complex relationships, find compassion, and to hold that for others. Accept that it’s not perfect in the way that we would define that perfection in our mind and really make the best of what we have and be open to new interactions and new people and stay discerning while we have those interactions. So, let’s invoke Sanctuary.

Universe, Source, God, Spirit is in through and all around us. Let’s imagine it in through and all around our bodies, in through and all around the room we’re in, and in through and all around the Earth, and in through and all around a much bigger scale, including all of the galaxies. And that this, this Universe, this reality is infinite time, eternal space.

God, Universe, Source is infinite time, eternal space. And in this co-creation, our Sanctuary is self-healing, self-harmonizing, self-balancing, self-grounding, and self-orienting. And within God, we are protected and safe.

Today’s lesson is really about orienting. And a lot of questions came up from the last lecture, really around what responsibilities we have for the more supernatural nature and destiny that our lives take, like this great path that we’re on. And what came up in the questions was a lot of trying to make sense of spiritual ideologies and beliefs that don’t line up always with our own understandings.

Like what’s a soul contract? Or how do I find myself in these complex relationships? And what’s my destiny? And what does it mean that we’ve made this up?

When we start our spiritual path, when we start this journey of awakening, we have a worldview. You started with a worldview. You were presented and given that worldview. If we go back in time, let’s imagine going all the way back in time 66 million years ago, 100 million years ago, the whole planet, the biggest animals here were dinosaurs, not humans. There were no humans.

And when I say we made it all up, I mean, like, pretty soon Earth creates the first humans. And then from there, humans procreate. And during that time, there was nothing that is the modern human cultural systems that we live in.

There were no spiritual beliefs. There was no infrastructure. There were no homes. There were no cities. There was nothing. And that’s what I mean by, I say, we made it all up.

We invented from literally our ancestors sitting together, just like other animals on the plains in the savannas of Africa, or up in the Altai Mountains in what we call Mongolia and Siberia, or wherever they actually were here within the Earth. And what has happened is a continuous evolution of culture, which is humans creating ideas about life and turning it into ritualistic behavior. That’s what I mean by when I say we made it all up.

And along the way, people created complex social systems, and they made up religions, and they made up mythology, and they made up literally in their heads, telling stories, they made up movies, they made up theater, they made up theatrics, they made up new age spirituality, they made up economic systems, they made up money, they made up rules, laws, legislation, politics, they made up supply chains and shipping lanes, they made up boats and cars and airplanes, they made up satellites and space stations.

We, the species, made this all up. We invented it all in our brains. And we have fought over it in complex systems, very much like if you look at nature and at the other animals, and you see that they’re in conflict too.

They’re struggling over dominance and procreation and food and resources, and lo and behold, humans are dominating and struggling over procreation and rules and food and resources still to the day. We made it all up.

We made up the flags. We made up the nation boundary states. We made up the political systems within them. We made up the buildings that they’re involved in, and then we made up the communication channels to talk about it, from writing on parchment, to printing presses, to paper that came out of papyrus, to then digital systems associated with it.

We made up the very first forms of currencies that ultimately became paper currencies that then became digital currencies. We have made it all up. What’s very complicated in that, and this is the lesson, is that humans have made up things that are fundamentally true, one bucket that’s true or facts, and they’ve made up things that’s just total baloney. Just made upnonsense, and when we were kids, we were incredible at making up nonsense, and as we became adults, we stayed incredible at making up nonsense, literally things that just don’t make sense, and in spirituality, spirituality has been filled with nonsense.

People wrote books about it that made sense to them in that moment because they thought a certain way, and they believed a certain way, and then you get presented with all these spiritual ideologies, beliefs, which is just people thinking about it a certain way, and inside there, it is a mess. It’s a mess of beliefs. It’s a mess of concepts that you then try to work out, like what’s myself, and what’s my higher self, and what’s my higher higher self, and what’s my highest highest highest higher self of self, but then Maestro, what’s a spirit of my spirit if that’s my higher self, and then if I have my spirit of my higher self, what’s my soul?

Do I have a lower soul, a middle soul, a higher soul, and the highest highest soul? We made it up. We’re trying to figure this out.

We’re trying to make sense of this, and it takes me back to the things that are just fundamentally facts, and we all experience them. Take a breath. Fact.

Move your body. Fact. Feel your weight and mass. Gravity. Fact.

It was so hard to discern that a number of hundreds of years ago, people created what they call the scientific method, a method to try to prove these ideologies, and it’s important to understand that all hypothesis starts in a belief about something.

It hasn’t been proven yet. It’s a belief. We think it could be la la la la la la la. Okay. Let’s start to figure out how we could prove that thing. I see us inside these complex spiritual things trying to define a way to map and understand our worldview, and the ideas around it are not in harmony. I was just in a conversation recently with some really smart people, and they’re beautiful souls, and one is saying, to me, this is karma, and the other one’s saying, to me, it’ssin, and I go, yeah, because you’re Buddhist, and you’re Christian.

You’re talking about an ideology and understanding inside a complex framework of thought that’s called a religion. Neither are right, and neither are wrong. They’re trying to describe a phenomenon, which is that when you have unresolved energy within you about something, when you have unresolved psyche and consciousness, there is this tension and this conflict.

One wants to call it karma, and the other one wants to call it sin, but it’s a feeling. The truth is, it’s a feeling. The truth is, it’s in your psyche, and if you put psychedelics in that person, if you put plant medicine in that person, boom happens.

Every time they don’t have integrity; they will purge in higher states of consciousness. They will see God and confess. They will talk to the plant spirit and release it from their bodies.

We have given words and categories to all these things, and we don’t really understand what they are relating to. I hear people all the time telling me about the ego. Well, the ego comes from ancient Greek philosophy, and then it gets taken by a coke head, a total coke addict, living in a city, shoving mountains of powder up his face, and popularizes a concept about ego, and then it gets colored with eastern philosophical teachings about self-realization, and then it gets put into a framework of good and bad, and it’s called bad.

That’s no different than original sin, where we’re all bad. Now, everyone has an ego, and ego’s bad, so we’re all bad. We have done this to ourselves. We have created these confusions. We are responsible for the choices and decisions we make.

People ask, do I have a soul contract with this person that’s totally toxic? No. No, you don’t. Do I have to da-da-da-da because I have a soul contract? No. You need to break the soul contract. You need to light that thing on fire. You need to get that out of your imagination. You need to make choices and decisions to extricate yourself from trauma, abuse, and mistreatment. No.

When we come together and we start to form relationship, we create a bond. If you think of yourself as a bunch of subatomic particles that interact with another human that’s a bunch of subatomic particles, those relate to each other, and they take on energy patterns. They bond.

Then you add heart to it, and you add desire to it, and you add sexuality to it, and you create more bond. And lo and behold, if you realize that you bonded to something completely toxic, you take on the toxicity. Not because you have a soul contract, but because you bonded with that thing.

And then you have to unbound with that thing. Well, you create physical separation and distance. But then you find out, wait, we had a mental connection.

Now you have to break cords and telepathic connection. Because you realize, well, it’s not just my mind and my little bubble of my little battery. There’s something bigger going on here. I’m still connected. And then you realize there’s heart connection, and you got to cut the cords to the heart. Not because of a soul contract, but because you bonded with a being here of this Earth.

Then you go through all the processes to finally go your separate way. And then you can. Often people in that come to plant medicine and then purge it all.

Finally, it re-patterns them. So, they’re not bonded in those patterns with that person anymore. And if you think about it from a quantum phenomenon, once you bond quantumly, you’re bonded through the whole Universe until you change the patterns. But you’ll never un-interact the bonds you created, the interactions in the quarks, the most subtle energies of us. And you can’t stop it from happening. So, it’s not like you can create a barrier to not have that happen.

The quarks have all been interacting forever. It’s just how the Earth is. It’s how the Universe is. You have to accept it.

When people are toxic, we call them sick, ill, infirmed, pathological. They have pathology. If they’re your parents, you got to help them. You might have to help them from afar. If they’re family, you decide your relationship with them.

You have to protect yourself and at the same time deal with it because it’s part of greater bonds. Because they’re not just based on choices. The people in our communities, the people we call friends, the people that we don’t have those bonds with, we get to choose.

That’s your choice. It’s sovereign. You have to take the sovereignty of your choice back.

You have choice and power. And you have to use that choice and power wisely because you can use your choice and power to create things that screw you up, that make it hard, that make it more difficult. Or you can use your choice to make things better for you.

Like choosing to reach out to our community and receiving support and love. Choosing to go find out the truth of the boundaries within your corporate relationship and finding out that there’s a path for you. Using your choice to have a conversation with somebody and get things into communication.

I see all these teachings in the New Age spiritual community that’s blaming you. And there is no blame. It’s shaming you and there is no shame. There’s no shame being yourself and there’s no shame having an ego and there’s no shame having a middle level self that’s growing and there’s no shame having a higher self. There’s no shame being yourself.

I want us to look at the things that make sense to us and just don’t make sense to us and the things that don’t make sense to us, you don’t have to believe.

If you come across spiritual teachings, they’re not proven. Other people believe them but they don’t resonate with you. You don’t need to believe them.

I want us to stay connected to the things that are facts for us, that are grounded and shared and universal and rational. And we start building a worldview around that.

Energy people didn’t make up but their stories about it they made up with energy. They took energy to make up stories about energy but energy was always here. The Divine architecture, the map we use of the body is exactly how the map was designed. I didn’t design it. I didn’t create a new version of us. I mapped it. We’re atoms and molecules and cells as much as subatomic particles and quantums and we’re made of space-time.

We are made of Universe. It’s just cosmic and we happen to have spirit and consciousness and soul. We happen to have mind and brain.

These are facts. What we do with them is up to us and that’s where I see a lot of people struggling to understand. You didn’t predestine yourself into a difficult situation and some karmic scenario here of Earth.

You were incarnate here because your parents procreated just like all our parents procreated and you found yourself in a world that was at war with itself. In all the ways it’s been at war with itself and that is the only reason we have this difficulty that we’re facing in our lives. If we all decided to take eight billion plus of us and make a utopia in one year, we would have a utopia called Earth and instead this year 2025 they’re going to create more war and boy man we’re going to go into 2026 in a state of global conflict and that is the only reason this is happening.

So, the day we all decide to do this differently is the day it’s all different and until then we can make up stories about it but those are just propagandas. It’s really simple. Our species has not dealt with the complexities of predation and the complexities of dominance and the complexities of competition, period.

Once we deal with competition dominance and resource everything can become stable and until then we have all suffered post-global war societies. I was born in what they call the 70s. That was only a couple decades after total global war.

So, you didn’t have some karmic destiny to come here and have some soul contract with a douchebag. The douchebag was a douchebag because that douchebag lives in a post-war world that was not prepared to live in total conflict as a human being. It’s really simple when we really look at just what happens.

People are born into our complex families and societies and then they’re in it trying to deal with it unprepared to deal with it and we learn to survive it not thrive it and then everyone is complex and messed up. So, in our community we’re looking at how we thrive life and part of it is getting this nonsense out of our head about these philosophies and concepts that just are not true. They’re just not true.

We’re all soul bonded. There’s only soul. There aren’t souls. There’s soul. There’s consciousness. There’s spirit and we’re unique expressions of it.

Your soul and my soul are made of the same Universe. Made of the same God. Your spirit and my spirit are made of the same God and the same Universe.

Your mind and my mind are made of the same God and same Universe. Your matter of your body and the matter of my body is part of the matter of God this Universe. We are part of the same phenomenon.

People have added complexity, duality, plurality to try to make sense of this when in reality we are all part of the same phenomenon. We want to embrace what’s true within us. We use Sanctuary to bring it into balance and harmony, into stability.

We reorient it and nonsense is literally nonsense. So, you get to let that go and it makes this much easier to address. Your mind becomes much easier to address because you’re not trying to put two and two together in something that doesn’t come together.

That’s the lesson for today. Let’s look into what makes sense for us and what doesn’t. Let’s bring forth those beliefs and ideas. Let’s understand that there are different ways of thinking about things but that doesn’t mean that’s quote how it is. Free ourselves of stuff that we’ve picked up along the way that’s just junk. We don’t need it.

It’s nonsense and it’s not true and it doesn’t help us. Let’s address our real lives and orient this to thriving and part of that is freeing ourselves from complexities that just aren’t helpful and aren’t true. We do that by recognition and intention and then from intention and recognition to ceremony.

So, we first just recognize it like I don’t think that’s true. Like I can be myself. I don’t need another person to tell me I’m less of a self because I’m not my higher self all the time.

Your higher self is with you all the time. I get to be myself. We all get to be ourselves.

Someone wants to tell me I have a soul contract. Okay well I can rewrite that contract. I’m going to get the soul lawyer on the soul contract to rewrite that contract right now.

Soul lawyer rewrite that thing. Hey God rewrite that thing. I’m ready to make a change within myself.

You do a little ceremony, do a little cord cutting, you do a little new understanding about that person. You give yourself some freedom and some space and you just walk your own direction. At the fork in the road, you just take the fork you want to go with the sovereign choice that you have in power.

So, there’s no need for confusion about this. When I said we make it all up I mean like literally. Humans made the whole thing up.

There was an Earth before humans and there’s Earth with humans and Earth with humans and all our complexities we made up. I would like us to learn something else to do because we’ve learned how to eat, we’ve learned how to drink, we’ve learned how to shelter and we’ve learned medicine meaning we have figured this place out. So now we can use our creativity for other things.

Right now, sadly for me the culture is using a lot of the creativity for nonsense and the nonsense confuses us. So, I want us to explore this and then we set intention, we work with God, Spirit and our guides to make changes within ourselves. We liberate ourselves from stuff that is not serving us in any way.

We learn a little bit more about truth and fact. We add that to our map. So that’s what I want to do over the next couple weeks.

Learn how to do that and we bring that into our practice. Thank you, guys, very much. I have about 25 minutes for questions today so if you have a question let’s go.

Nicholas, hello.

[Nicholas]

Hello. I’ve got two questions. One is really quick the other one maybe not so much.

But the first question is in icaro, I’ve heard in Maestro Christian’s recorded ceremony often this goes, what does that mean specifically? I know it has something to do with not dominating but what does it mean?

[Hamilton]

Okay, the philosophy in icaros come from this idea of dominance which is exactly what we’re talking about today. They have an idea that the spirit’s trying to dominate you and there’s an idea that you are dominating the spirit or you’re making the spirit go. So, you’re in a state of conflict as you’re trying to address these negative energies and the no dominar si toi ni means to make a command that says you can’t dominate me.

Like I’m not dominatable in this situation. I’m sovereign and able to guide and direct. It also comes from a state of conflict inside the philosophy of the practices in icaros themselves.

It’s coming from a place of battle. It’s unnecessary in Sanctuary. In Sanctuary practice you have all the spirit in your favor so there’s no question of dominance about it.

You could say it for fun. You’d be like, hey you can’t dominate me because I’m in Sanctuary if you want to. But it’s just fun.

That would be part of your art and your style. You’re not battling this thing. You’re just like, hey spirits move that. Spirits, please do this. Spirits help us here as you practice your art. So that’s what it’s about.

So, what I want to do is share with you guys the vocabulary list associated with the icaros. So, you can start if you’d like to learn the words and start to translate them into your own languages so you can understand specifically what’s being said.

And so, let’s do that and then we can have a lesson in a couple weeks on icaro to better understand how the language of icaro is basically a series of algorithmic spiritual commands.

But if you’re in a situation with a person where a person has these really intense energies and all of a sudden you feel like the energies are coming into you and they’re trying to push on you, that’s when they would use the command, you can’t dominate me, go. So, they put it in their icaro. But that should never happen in Sanctuary.

In Sanctuary it’d be like, well I’m feeling some energies wanting to come at me. Okay all the spirits that deal with energies coming with me deal with those. Hey those spirits are going in this direction. Let’s reorient those to going in that direction. Hey these spirits are really quite intense in this person. Let’s bring in all the spirits that balance and harmonize that.

Let’s flood them with trillions and trillions of other spirits that balance and harmonize that. Oh look, that thing can now go. So, you just have so much more support than the kind of scarcity model that the traditions came from.

[Nicolas]

The second question I have is around story, narrative, and duality. I’ve been hearing from people quite recently around just not telling story. And I find that to be an impossibility of just not being able to tell a story.

And I guess the way I’m framing it is I want to tell stories that are beneficial to me rather than just denying storytelling altogether. And then I see the same thing with duality in the sense of not describing. The way I see it with duality is understanding that everyone else pretty much is in that state and it’s beneficial to move beyond it but still also be able to describe it like with good and bad and understand that all of these descriptions that we give, I think it’s important to understand how to describe something if it actually is that way.

What does the spirit do and how can I describe it in a way that I can convey that to other people? If there’s a spirit that is really harming, I want to say, okay, this thing is probably negative and I want to skirt around it or not deal with it. Or if I have to deal with it, be in the Sanctuary, always be in the Sanctuary, but from neutral to positive, protecting, all of those types of things.

I’ve been seeing a lot of denial of description, which I know in my experience has led to just really being hard to then communicate with other people. And then the same thing around story within my own mind of all of that.

[Hamilton]

So, story is a mechanism of communication and you can decide how you want to use that mechanism of communication. Simple as that. A story communicates information and they’re very powerful and very important and storytelling is very powerful and very important and storytelling is how we’ve created the complex societies that we have.

But you can’t deny storytelling that is telling its own story. And as you say, you find it’s impossible. It is impossible.

There are stories everywhere. If you don’t tell them, others will tell them and as they tell them, they’re telling stories that are the continuation of the stories being told. So, we have to decide what stories we’re telling and how we tell them.

The problem in complex storytelling is that we don’t have enough time and attention to tell the real story. So, you tell little bits and pieces of the story. And so, you want to understand the story that you’re telling for the impact that it’s creating.

And it’s an art in its own right. There are people that are really good at and there are people that are less good at. And the most important thing I heard about it recently is that it’s about resonance.

It’s about the frequency and energy of the story itself that somebody else receives and either perpetuates or does something else with it. And so, if you’re making an impact with your story, you want your story to make an impact. When you tell yourself stories that are now limiting to you, the content of them is not helpful. The content is self-sabotaging. You’re taking story and duality, taking little bits of it and applying it to yourself in a way that’s just not true. You have to be very careful about that because you start to limit your own understanding of your reality.

Not that your understanding is the reality. So now you’ve taken your understanding, which is always a microcosm of the reality, which is exactly what’s happening beyond our perceptive awareness. And now we’re limiting ourselves with the codes we tell ourselves in story.

We want to be very careful about that. And so, we always want to orient our story to neutral to positive. And we use Sanctuary to help us with that.

Now in terms of description and duality, we want to understand that description and duality is a linguistic form. It’s a way of talking about something. And there are other ways of talking about it and it conveys a different message.

So, when you have a different message associated with duality, people utilizing duality as the way to communicate, you need to try to best affirm your use of that to accurately convey what you’re describing. And it’s not easy. We need to look at this as a fundamental form of communication.

So, for instance, I’ll say to somebody, well, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, that’s bad. And they’ll go, well, is it really bad? Is it kind of bad? Is it sort of bad? Is it super bad? Is it super, super bad? Is it the worst bad it could possibly be? Right? And it’s just, it’s very difficult to use that concept and convey that or, hey, that’s good.

So, we want to be careful about how we understand the use of duality to actually try to convey the message that we’re meaning with it. But we can’t also shy away from that because the current linguistic architecture, the philosophy sitting behind the words that people are using right now are super dualistic. We’re living in a hyper-polarized dualistic time.

So, people are thinking that way or trying to communicate to the way people are thinking. So, I think that denial of that is a spiritual attempt early in someone’s path to try to address it because it just seems like a mess when you try to address it. So, they just go to denial and then you find out that denial doesn’t work.

So, explore it and just try to become more effective in your communication, clearer in the way that you’re using words and better at conveying the message that you’re trying to convey.

[Nicolas]

Thank you. Thank you. I also just wanted to add to like with the storytelling, I was, framing it more in like, maybe not like the grand storytelling of things, but really like the micro of it.

Like later today, I’m going to have, have a healthy meal. And that’s the story I’m telling myself that’s going to benefit me now into later today.

[Hamilton]

Yeah. And that’s exactly right. That is how we use story about everything.

That’s the story you’re telling yourself. So, use it to be the story that helps you. But how are you going to get there? Like, how do you actually get to later today? And how do you get to that healthier meal? And the answer is your choices.

Every single choice you make between now and then is going to make that happen or not happen. So, use the story to empower yourself and make the choices that actually manifest the empowerment of your story and see if you can align your story with your choices. Because how many people were younger and heard yourself say, tonight, I’m not going to go out and get drunk.

I’m just going to go out with my friends and have one drink. And then you come home many drinks later. Who did that?

So that’s how we don’t use story to empower ourselves. Great example. All right, Asha.

Hello.

[Asha]

Hello. I’ve got some self-sabotage. It’s been going on for a long time now.

And it’s to do with romantic relationships. It seems to be as soon as the kind of step into cohabiting, I go into this, I want to say I just feel quite overwhelmed with the situation with living in the house, be it the cleaning, being at the cooking.

I suddenly kind of go from what I would say is a happy, oriented, correctly, Asha, live with someone. And pretty much even within like a week, I can feel myself turning in that way.

And I’ve lived with different men. And they’ve all been very nice. So, it isn’t them. In that it’s a pattern that has come up.

And now, obviously, I live with someone, and I’ve married someone that has the same pattern. So, we almost have this. It’s like, I suppose, avoidance.

We’re great women not in close quarters. And then when you’re in the house, everything feels, we just feel quite claustrophobic.

And then as the time goes on, as I’ve realized, because I’ve gone from a place of, this isn’t my pattern until about five years ago. And I’m like, oh, this is my pattern. This isn’t the other people.

This is me. So, I’ve sort of take trying to take responsibility for it. And what are your thoughts on that?

Cohabiting? Not getting overwhelmed? Any?

I’m in a place to reorient it.

[Hamilton]

I think it starts in something that has nothing to do with the patterns at all, which is love. Start in the bond of love. Like, why are you married and cohabitating?

And where’s the bond of love connection in the first place? And you want to set the intention that everything that you’re going to do within that space is going to grow the love.

So, the first orientation is, said this before, like, relationships are like, you take two balloons, imagine two balloons. And you’re this whole balloon, and they’re this whole balloon, and then you just squish them together. And that’s the timeline you guys are together. And if you’re alive your whole life, one will transition. And that’s when the balloons go like this. Right? So, the idea of happily ever after still has the same issue where the balloons curve away for a period of time. And you’re just together.

So that line that gets formed between the two, when you squish them all together, right, has this force to constantly be creating this desire to separate, just go another way. And you’re trying to not do that.

So, you want to actually reorient that to come together, to come together more and more and more and more, and we come together around love. So, the choices that we’re making are what brings us together more, what affirms our bond more, what supports us more, what gets us to, in the face of difficulty, instead of orienting to separation, orienting to bond. And that thing that does that is the love.

So, we think differently, that’s great, but we love each other more. Now, once you have that part understood that your choice that you’re both making together is to love, not to separation, right, we’re going to choose the love that brought us together in the first place. We’re going to keep choosing that.

You face the patterns and behavioral natures of living together in confined quarters. And so,we want to address that in agreements around, you know, roles and responsibilities within the space that are the ones that you do better and the other person does better for each other, for the space, right. And then not just traditional roles, but really what you do better.

So, it’s like, look at the house as this is all we have to do to maintain a household. Who’s good at what here? And who’s willing to do what for it?

And if you need outside help, how can you afford that outside help to make that happen? Because there’s a whole service industry about supporting people living. So how do you support that?

And I think the final piece is now you’ll have more harmony because tasks will be done by better talent in your space, right, who’s better suited. And then the final piece is making home your epicentral place of comfort that becomes home base, right. And home base is a refuge, it’s a Sanctuary, it’s a place of safety, and it’s a place of mutual relaxation.

And so, it’s setting that intention with your partner to create that vibe and create that space. And I think if you do that, probably in like three months, you can reorient all of two, three months, you can reorient all the patterns. And then personally, you’ll just have to go in and do a bunch of pattern recognition from what was the past that frees you to do new patterns and think in new ways in the first place.

So, during that time, you do healing work. That’s what I call the healing work, which is you realize what in you is not working, and you set intentions to change that. And it always comes with how you learned that way in the first place.

That’s where I use the idea of exclusion, you go, no, not that way anymore, this new way. You know, not that way, this new way. And just so everyone knows, I do this on a weekly basis, like a daily, weekly basis, because we’re evolving and growing.

So, we’re always dealing with how we sabotaged and how we actually now want to grow out of that, or how we just didn’t know, and how we want to grow out of that. Love and heart, best talent and patterns in the space, create a refuge Sanctuary together for each other in the bond of that love, and then heal what in the past is just not serving you. And, you know, new patterns come from that.

Jasmine, hi.

[Jasmine]

Hi, Mastro. Okay, so I have a few questions. So, the first one is, I have this understanding from like doing plant medicines and things like that, and like, understandings of the teachings that I’ve received that we create our own reality.

And that that reality is coming from inside of us. And if we’re creating a reality that isn’t serving us, it’s because we have these codes inside of us that are projecting that into reality. And that using the plants as a way to see what those things are like looking at a hood of under the hood of the car, so to speak, and seeing what we can rearrange to like, then project the reality that’s helpful and better for us and the reality we want to create.

Is this correct? Or is this how you understand it?

[Hamilton]

I understand that that’s an aspect. That’s an aspect. But the material world around you is still the material world around you.

So, say you’re like downtown in a big city, I was downtown in San Francisco recently in a big city, I’m not projecting San Francisco, San Francisco has been there for decades. And people have been projecting reality into San Francisco and using blueprints and engineering and architecture to build the city and it goes through city planning and all this stuff, right?

That’s not made up. And I’m not projecting that into reality. And then therefore there’s a city. I’m not manifesting the space around me from some like quantum simulation that’s becoming my reality.

Physical matter is a divine phenomenon. And it exists way before we exist. And so, the relationship of the idea of what I’m creating and projecting into a space and the codes that I have within me are in relationship with the physical environment, they’re in relationship with the space time.

And it’s how you approach living in that space. And I think that’s very real. I think that’s the differentiation.

And I think that the spiritual teachings and some of the psychedelic teachings make it seem like the projections we create are manifesting the totality of the space that’s beyond us. But I don’t think that that’s fundamentally true.

And then if you put yourself in a circle with 10 people, well, they’re all doing it. So, they’re doing it. Now you have a Venn diagram overlap. How does that work?

How does your projection including everybody there include their projection and everybody there that now includes you and them in it together? Right. So, there’s a part of how you’re creating your reality, but then there’s a part of how you live within a reality that was created for you before you ever got here.

And now you’re merging with it and you’re expressing it. And this also comes into questions around more mystical things I’m looking at the wall and there’s a phenomenon like, am I projecting that wall or is that wall just there? Well, in my projection, I can’t move the wall.

And then it’s like, oh, someone else comes and says, well, you’re not spiritually advanced enough to move the wall. I can move the wall. And then I say, well, I don’t see you moving the wall.

Oh, because you’re not spiritually advanced enough to see me moving the wall. And I’m like, no, the wall’s just there. That’s the wall. The wall was there a long time ago. Builders built the wall, right? Like that’s just the wall.

And then there are these unique phenomena that people say, like even at my lodge, where they said, I put my arms out before ceremony. I could touch the wall. I put my arms out during ceremony and I couldn’t touch the wall.

Yeah. And that’s a phenomenon. We have no idea. Maybe they put their hands to the wall. Maybe there was no wall. Maybe it all moved.

I don’t know. That’s their phenomenon in that moment. But I don’t think that’s because of some deficiency or deficit within you that you’re projecting into a space, something that’s creating an opposition for you or a difficulty for you, especially when you’re coming up into scenarios where there are other people that are creating whatever they’re creating at the very same time.

And so, taking responsibility isn’t that you have something wrong within yourself that’s making that happen, but a series of choices and decisions that put you into that scenario in the first place. And where could we have made a different choice or decision that gives you a different path?

[Jasmine]

So, if we want to create more helpful connections, it’s also creating intentions around relating to what is already existing in the space as well.

[Hamilton]

Exactly.

[Jasmine]

Awesome. Thank you. And then I have another question.

We did a shamanic intervention around money. And during that, I always know that we’re doing it because it feels like I’m on three grams of mushrooms and I’m like really deep in it. And I’m just like, OK, I think it’s happening right now.

And so, in this experience around money, it was about shame. And so, is there a correlation between poverty and shame or between grace and abundance?

[Hamilton]

This is a big, big question. We should look at this in a whole module on money and economics and the nature of them. But the shame component of it comes from poverty being used as a form of social control hierarchy and a kind of slavery.

And with that comes a natural compression that you’re now less than confined and someone else is more because they have more of this intangible thing that everyone agrees to. Fundamentally, money is an ideology that people agree to.

And in our societies, you get to agree to it at force of death. And so, you have no choice but to agree to it. If you don’t agree to it and you do whatever you want about it, you’ll be put in jail or you’ll be killed. And so that’s how that belief was unified amongst our species on a unilateral level.

And it’s a very interesting technology because it has been bonded with the calendar. And so,to participate in a relationship with money, money and time are now one thing, like space time is one thing while money time is one thing. And when China was included in the global economic system, when it was finally allowed, they had to give up the Chinese calendar and adopt the current calendar, the global calendar.

And they got to keep the Chinese calendar as a cultural calendar, but the economic calendar still was now the global agreed calendar. That’s how they sync the markets together. That’s how the species syncs it all together.

So now you put time and money together, and now you have an even more intense relationship of this thing. And then it gets used to create all sorts of compressions and definitions within our society. And individuals who have been confined to that, owned by that, enslaved to that, not just like somebody owns you, but just the system does kind of concept of slavery, that ends up causing shame and lots of other kinds of mental difficulties and mental emotional difficulties then in and around money.

Money is a great one around spirituality because there’s a lot of talk about these spiritual ways to try to free yourself from that. And what I think is that to be able to do well in money, you have to understand the system that money is being utilized in and through. That’s kind of part of the core architecture of the system.

And then you have to understand how to free yourself of all the ways that you were taught poverty, so that you can just free yourself of that. And that includes shame and all different kinds of punishment, and it’s intergenerationally reprogrammed as well.

And then there’s the idea of duality around money. Money is good, money is bad. Money is neither good nor bad. Money is just money. It’s a system and it’s a technology. And then there’s the part about it, about the nature of energy associated with it. Oh, money is just energy.

Well, yes and no. Money can be thought of as a store of energy, but it can also be just called a number system that everybody has to adhere to and agree to. It’s not rational, it’s not fair, and it’s not evenly distributed.

So, in that, you will have a relationship and then you have all the different psychological forms that that relationship manifests. So, we’ll go into it in depth, but I think most importantly is we want to look at the relationship we have to the confines and limitations created by that system. And then we have to make choices and decisions about that.

When I was younger, I was unwieldingly uncompromising about money and my spirituality. I was never going to alter the nature of my spirituality for money. I was willing to go live off the land in the forest to be able to practice my spirituality completely free from the confines of Western economic systems.

Ultimately, and funnily, to practice medicine and support others, it brought me back into society where then all of a sudden there was this issue in and around money. And when I was out deep into the forest, just my presence being there changed the economics of that where there was already money, only a very tiny, tiny amount of it. So even where I lived way out in the forest, the people there still had a little bit of coin in their pocket.

And because of that, there was already tensions that that causes. And so, we can’t get away from it. We can’t deny it. We have to learn to address it. And I want us to think about how can we purge and release all the negatives, go to the neutral, learn it, it’s a study in its own right, and then start to make our choices that come from neutral to positive about it. Okay.

[Jasmine]

Awesome. Thank you. And there’s another question I have about, I was listening to your e-grows a couple of days ago, and there’s, so you say guna, gunayari, and gunayni.

Are those how?

[Hamilton]

They’re all the same. They’re all the same. Yeah, the ends of the words are what gives tonality to the language.

And it means now, it means you’re saying for something to come into existence now. And why one or the other, there’s no why, that’s your art. That’s how you like to speak.

[Jasmine]

Okay. So, if I say like mamayari, mamayni, it’s all just calling the mama.

[Hamilton]

That’s the mamas. Exactly.

[Jasmine]

So, it’s just kind of a, it’s just an art form. It’s just like, oh, this rhymes with the last thing, and it sounded really nice. So, then we’re just calling it now.

[Hamilton]

And we use that to help string it together. Otherwise, there is no way to melodically express the language. So, it just becomes, do this now, mama.

Help this person’s heart. That, that’s what I mean by commands. Like once you understand the language, you realize that the logical expression of the language is very simple.

And when you put it into a melodic form in a visionary ceremony, it becomes incredibly sophisticated. And so, our ancestors figured out this beautiful art of very simple thinking into melody, into the fractals and consciousness and patterns of the medicine to manage vast amounts of information. Vast amounts.

And we don’t have a way to understand. It’s like a compression language. It takes so much going on and turns into these little phrases and strings them together in ways that rhyme and are melodic and harmonic and sound, you know, for those who like it really pleasurable.

[Jasmine]

And so, when we’re doing this, like this is happening and it’s happening in the space. So,what I’m doing now is I’m calling in all the spirits at the beginning that I want to work with in the space. But then what I’ll do while I’m doing it is sometimes, I’ll focus on one spirit and I won’t say it, but I’ll say like, I’ll focus on that one to do the thing I just want to do.

Then I’ll focus on the other one to do the thing I just want to do instead of every single time being, you know, Colibri do this, like Otorongo do this. Does that work? I mean, it feels like it works, but.

[Hamilton]

It’s exactly how it works. There isn’t enough time to say everything. So, say you’re working with Colibri and Jaguar, Otorongo.

As soon as you call Colibri, Colibri is there until you release Colibri. Colibri is there. Could be four, five, six, seven hours working in the ceremony.

So, you called Colibri and then that’s a hummingbird. You called hummingbird, and now you’re going to call Jaguar. Now, as they’re working, you mentally working directly with them, intentionally working without even having to be mental about it.

So, you have an intentional expression. At the same time, you have a mental expression. As the same time, you have an icaro expression, and they’re following all of those at the same time.

That’s why I say that’s how the language becomes really sophisticated with a very, very tiny amount of input into it.

[Jasmine]

Okay, awesome. And so, my other question was kind of similar, when we’re doing last time,we were talking about Halamongi. So, if I’m wanting to like Halamongi the forest from somewhere else, and I just like focus on that forest, and that’s what I’m calling in.

And I don’t have to say that forest because it’s just.

[Hamilton]

Exactly. The combination now is they call that mentally working. So, I could be in my mind focusing on the Amazon and saying Halamongi, Halamongi.

And then I could be in my mind focusing on, I don’t know, the redwood trees. And then I could be in the icaro saying Halamongi, Halamongi. And then in my mind, I could be calling the Colibri.

And in the icaro, I could be saying Halamongi, Halamongi. And in my vision, I know I’ve just layered the Amazon with the redwoods with the hummingbirds, but I never once said them.

[Jasmine]

So cool. Okay, awesome. Thank you.

[Hamilton]

Yeah, and that’s often why in the icaros, you hear such repetitiveness, because mentally, the person is doing something else, not saying it, and just using the command. They’re just speaking the commands. And in their mind, they’re dancing through all the things that the commands are relating to.

[Jasmine]

Okay, so that makes sense. Because there was once where you’re like, we don’t need to repeat, they already heard it the first time, but then we repeat. So, then it’s repeating.

Well, it’s repeating the same words, but you’re saying it to something else.

[Hamilton]

To something else. Exactly. That’s exactly right.

And you can also just, you know, jaguar, eagle, forest, trees, halamongi. And then oceans, whales, dolphins, algaes, halamongi. You know, or you can just halamongi, halamongi, halamongi, halamongi, and say all those things in your mind.

That’s the art of it.

[Jasmine]

Okay. All right. Thank you so much.

[Hamilton]

You’re welcome. My pleasure. You know, say you have an intention for the ceremony coming from the heart for love and healing for everybody.

The whole ceremony is just a love healing ceremony. Right? Just boom.

Then you have mentally working all the different spirits that you’re working with in that layer. While this is always just love and healing, love and healing, love and healing. And then this is all these guys, and they’re representing actions to love and healing, love and healing.

So, love and healing’s the whole time. And now you’re like, these guys, right? And then out of your mouth, they’re just coming commands and invocations and statements.

And all of that’s happening the whole time through the ceremony.

[Jasmine]

So that’s how come we could do like, oh, this person needs this right now. This person needs this. And you can just start doing that.

But the same intention just goes throughout them.

[Hamilton]

Exactly. That holds the whole ceremony together. And then you can add to that.

It’s a kind of distortion in time, like when you’re in ceremony and you see this great time dilation that you can call a Colibri at the beginning of the ceremony, because they’re intelligent to know to go to anybody in the ceremony at any time they need the Colibri. So now because you called the Colibri three hours ago, that person now needs it. You don’t need to tell it.

It knows to be watching everybody in the ceremony and go when needed to wherever needed. Now you’re working with the intelligence of the spirit.

[Jasmine]

And so how do we do that through intention or through command?

[Hamilton]

Both. Mostly through intention. That comes when you say, like Ciel Ayahuasca, and you’re calling a Mama or a Cincharuna, the Mamas and Cincharunas are smart.

So Curangicho, Cuerposito for everybody, right? That means heal the body. You’ve just told the Mama to go heal the bodies.

That’s in command. And your intention is through love and through God and through Sanctuary. And now they’re going to go pick the individual spirits that actually go to each person.

So, you didn’t have to actually call all of them. And then the next day, if you ask everybody, they’ll be like, oh my God, when you said that, these came to me. And in other person, my fractals all changed like this.

In other person, the patterns all did this. And what made all those differentiations happen is actually the Mamas, the intelligence of the spirit themselves as they’re now guiding and differentiating.

[Jasmine]

Okay. Yeah. Because they’re like the CEO.

So, they’re just sending out what needs to be sent out to wherever.

[Hamilton]

Exactly. That’s exactly right. So now you’re even using more of their intelligence and now you can even use more of a shorthand language for them.

So now you’ve said even more because you’ve given a command to a Mama that’s working with tens of thousands, hundreds of thousands of different spirits within their domain. And you’ve activated the Mama, the Mama is activating their domain, and now they’re expressing it through the room.

[Jasmine]

So cool. Amazing.

[Hamilton]

I love it too. It’s a ton of fun.

You’re welcome. Davis, hi.

[Davis]

What’s up, man? How are you? Good to see you.

It’s been a wild year for us as we started the year with when you gave us that intervention, and then everything’s been turned upside down and restarting and resetting and restarting and resetting. But the ceremonies have been a continuous just realignment and getting connected and grounded again.

So, we’ve been using that as our oasis in between the wild moments. And one of the things we’ve been experiencing recently is we’ll get into ceremony, and I feel like I’m at the interface of a jet plane is what it feels like. I get in and then I’m there.

And then I can see all the buttons, everything I want to do. It’s like, okay, what do you want to do? I’ve got a few hours.

And then my creativity just goes, I feel, I started judging myself for having lack of creativity, because I forgot all my intentions. Like as soon as I sit in the driver’s seat, and I’m like, oh, yeah, I forgot. I was like, oh, I want to call in money spirits.

And I call money spirit shows right up. And then he’s looking at me like, well, what are we going to do? I’m like, you tell me what’s going on, man.

Like, where’s the money? I don’t know. Why don’t you have the money?

And he’s like, you tell me where the money is. You guys are supposed to figure this out. This has happened with Christ.

This happened with Buddha’s happened with I mean, literally, I will find myself in these ceremonies, and I call them in and they’re just looking at me. I look at what’s next. Even I was sitting at the bar with ayahuasca and Jesus Christ one time, and they’re just both looking at me serving like and she serves me up a cup.

And she’s like, what’s up? What are we going to do? I don’t know.

Aren’t you guys supposed to be in charge of this? And she’s like, no, we’re going to, we’re going to do this together. And in that moment, I just lose all this desire of all the intention I had coming into it.

And I’m curious if there’s just a basic set of commands that you throw at any spirit when you do does your mind go blank? What do you do when you go blank in that moment? I’m looking for any sort of insight.

[Hamilton]

Okay, first thing to do, go write it all down by hand on a piece of paper and put the piece of paper on like a coffee table in front of you. And that’s it. This is just a ritual for it.

Okay, so it’s done in code. And now whenever that happens, just point to it and go that all of that, I can’t remember, but I know that that was important two hours ago. So that like, and then read it, like I’m in the command thing and go read the commands again.

You know, and when I do that in ceremony, when I don’t know, I tell them, it’s all the intentions that’s inside me. So, the shorthand in ceremony without the paper, that’s why I said the paper is just a ritual, but it’s helpful because it gives you something to anchor on. Right?

Because you actually took the time to write it all down. I tell them, it’s all the stuff, you know, of why I called you in the first place. I got other stuff to do.

Like, I’m dealing with this, like, it’s all in here. It’s all my all my intentions. That’s why I called you go in there and just read it and let’s go.

I don’t have time to put it all in words right now. I can’t put it all in words right now.

[Davis]

So, in that moment, that phrase, I’ve, I’ve used that in my head. And then I tell myself I’m lying to myself because I have nowhere else to be because I have nowhere to go because I’m everywhere anyways. And so, then I found myself in the last ceremony.

I just became extremely bored. And I just thought, oh, this medicine is doing what it’s doing to me. And it was stretching out my spine and my body was moving.

And then I started judging myself for not, for not doing anything else because I called it and all the healing spirits to do their healing. And then they’re healing. And I’m just there on my, on the operating table, so to speak.

And I’m like, okay, what am I going to do now?

[Hamilton]

You receive operation. So, part of this is just about being receptive, receive the operation and be okay with that. The other thing is to, you know, understand that universal states are universal in their nature.

So, if you go to a universal state, you’re going to get a universal answer, but there’s also a lot of other things to do. So, everyone’s equally okay right now, all the way through now, right now through transition, but a sick person is equally okay right now, but they need healing. So now that’s giving intentionality. That’s giving direction to something. So, we need you to fly the plane. So, they don’t, the spirits don’t fly the plane. You fly the plane, right?

So, we need you to in the cockpit. Another metaphor for it is start flying the plane, take it off autopilot and start flying that thing, you know, and start to give guidance and direction about the direction that you’re going.

You know, maybe that’s giving it a new GPS coordinates. Maybe that’s actually like starting to focus and not go to that universal place, but actually like drill down into how you give direction. You know, so even if you’re in a universal place, yeah, it’s all the same, but grab the telescope and point it at something.

You did that, right? And that’s, we call that agency. So, start taking agency over that experience.

When you’re in a receptive state, you take agency over your receptivity and we call that giving yourself time to heal. So, when you need healing, you’re like, I put myself on the operating table. I have a million things to do, but not when I need an operation.

Those million things are put on hold until the operation’s done. Sometimes operations are boring. That’s a big lesson that I just had with a bunch of people out at the lodge doing dieta.

I said, well, nine days of dieta, if you really dieta, you’re going to do almost nothing during the nine days. You’re going to get bored. You’re going to be wondering what you’re doing during that time of boredom, right?

Well, you can use that time to get clear and you can use that time to get focused and you can use that time to filter out nonsense from what’s really important, like defragging. You can defrag your consciousness during that time. You know, sometimes it’s just really sweet to give yourself time to rest.

So, I just think of that as nurturing time. You just, okay, I’m on the operating table. I’m not doing anything. I’m just going to rest. I’m going to get curled up, put the blanket over me. I’m just chilling.

And you give yourself that time. It’s kind of indulgence. It’s nice.

So, you use that time. Agency to heal requires often becoming very still during that time and then also stilling the mind. And then, you know, if you’re forgetting your intentions, they know your intentions.

It’s just, they’re waiting for you to do that thing next. So, I mean, the story I always tell is, I’ll tell it really quickly.

I’m super scared in the Amazon. I’m in my early apprenticeship. I’m completely freaking out. I’m terrified all the time. I finally screw up the courage to drink a big cup of ayahuasca to address all my fears. So, I drink the big cup of ayahuasca and I’m sitting there and nothing happens. Nothing, nothing, nothing.

An hour goes by, nothing. And I’m just over it. I’m so upset.

And so, I just take my chakapa. I wasn’t even chakaping because I was going to deal with my fears, but I’m waiting for the ayahuasca to deal with my fears. And so, I just take my chakapaand I raise it to throw it on the ground in defiance.

And on my way down just from here to here from the chakapa, the room explodes. I realized in that moment; I don’t drop the chakapa right in that moment. Oh, they’re waiting on me.

I got to do something. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do, but I have to do something. Okay.

I’m going to start purging the fear. So, I start invoking it. I start purging it. I realized I’m 11 out of 10 ayahuasca. The ayahuasca was just waiting. It wasn’t that nothing was happening.

It was that I wasn’t even seeing what was happening. I was so gone. Then the next three hours was me purging fear with the help of ayahuasca.

Then we went deep, but not, it made me purge my fear. I purged my fear that night with the help of ayahuasca. I realized, oh, I have to get active. I have to have agency.

I have to do something with this. It can be anything. What I liked about the art, just so you know, maybe I didn’t need to get up and dance. I don’t know. Maybe I need to go use the bathroom. It can be anything. Maybe I need to go eat something. Maybe I need to just say nonsense for a while.

I don’t know what it is in that moment. I just have to free myself from whatever it is I’m doing right now that’s not working. I need to get something going that starts getting me active again in my role of agency.

Then your creativity turns back on.

[Davis]

Thank you.

[Hamilton]

Yeah, you’re welcome. My pleasure. Hi, Carly.

[Carly]

Hi. Wow, you pretty much answered most of them today. So, thanks.

I just want to zoom in for a second and see what is coming for me. All week long, so just to give you a little context, I’m here co-facilitating a retreat. My experience is that in my observation, I’m seeing my nervous system go, what?

Then the story is like, this is unsafe. That’s disrespectful. This is really like, you know, and like, really, this threat detection system is like, wow.

We’re piloting a program on the leader, the person who kind of put this all together and financed it and everything. That person’s friends. They’re all just going full send with no regard for anything.

A lot is coming up for me. So much is coming up for me. I think the difficulty is that like.

All week long, I’ve been like, I need to talk to Hamilton. I’ve been reaching out to our friends and that kind of stuff. And the thing is, like, I kind of know what you’re going to say, which is like, listen to yourself, listen to your nervous system and run screaming like on fire from these people.

And so, I think, like, I think what’s, what is happening is I’m like, I don’t know, you know, I’m thinking about emulation and exclusion. I’m thinking about how, the nervous system does this and all the rest of it is a story. And I’m thinking about, how am I in judgment about what I’m perceiving?

Right. And, as I observe this person to be in, a pretty significant amount of delusion. And it goes back to that lecture you gave a couple of weeks ago.

Some people in the fight medicine space just go and go and go and go and go. And then, and then they’re like, I’ve done it 27 times. I’m shaman now. You know, it’s my job to transmit and cleanse for everyone else. And, you know, all of a sudden, I’m torn between this place of like, the other people that I’m working with, really enjoying them and really seeing the mission and staff being beautiful, right?

The Earth is changing and we’re all ascending and, we have the capacity to help others ascend too. And that’s a beautiful thing. I don’t know, it feels one of those people in my life, which was really triggering my parent wounds, those are the people that I don’t know how to be in relationship with because they’re toxic and they hurt.

And, and so in one part, I would need someone to tell me it’s okay that, in those relationships, I can be, none of that, no more of that. And then just go and live my life. But then I feel this, responsibility to find connection, collaboration, and understanding, no matter what, in my work, how do I just continue abandoning myself so that I can avoid harm in the future.

[Hamilton]

All right; you are in it. You are in it. This is the real medicine space.

This is the real plant medicine, psychedelic space going on in the world right now. And just, you know, you have some people that are piloting a program and they’re going full send, and you don’t have to full send with them. Period.

You can define your medicine practice. And you can observe them go full send. And in your observations of them, you can take all the teachings and learnings that you’ve gotten through us and see how this stacks out.

At least you have something to be able to compare with. And you can start to get comfortable with your role in this space. And the hardest part about the plant medicine space, you know, down in Peru and in other parts of South America, is that it is completely unregulated.

It’s just people doing. It’s just lots of people doing in all different ways. And so, this is where you get to define for yourself what you want to do and you want to be a part of and where you fit in.

And you can have harmony with the leader of this without having to copy the leader’s behavior. And without having to participate in the plant medicine practice in a way that you’re not comfortable with. And you can watch for what happens when they go full send and what happens when they have delusion.

And everybody has some level of it that’s in the space. It isn’t like, oh, those guys are the ones free of delusion and those guys are the ones that are super delusional. Everybody is in kind of a hybridized state there, between ancestral teachings and understandings and the way people thought during the time of Incas and the pre-Incas, all the way now to the Western coming in and the influx of all those ideologies and belief systems.

So, it’s like really in alignment with what we’re talking about. And understanding that there’s this big cauldron of ideology going on in behavior and then choices about plants and, you know, indulgences to self and leniency around it, where they’re just like, well, I can do whatever I want.

And, you know, Julio made it really simple for me. He goes; there’s three states. There’s maestro, loco, which is crazy, or muerto, which is dead. So, he’s like, hey, there are these three. And he didn’t mean like just for an apprentice. He’s like, hey, for the maestros too, like for everybody, you’re either in maestro land, you’re just crazy or you’re dead. So, I made it really simple for me.

And it’s like, oh, well, I have to always be focused on maestro land out of the three. I’m not here to die. And I’m not here to go loco.

I’m here to be in and now maestro land. Maestro land means I’m training and learning. And that doesn’t mean copying my teachers. I have to be discerning. I have to, you know, walk it. And so, I look at the relationships with the other practitioners as like, well, do I want to be around what they’re doing?

If the answer is no, I just have to go my own way. If I am, am I harmonious enough with them that we have a good working relationship? I can support that.

You know, and then if I look at like the next level of this, well, a leader and their friends pushing the envelope, that’s one thing, a leader than doing that for innocent people who don’t know the difference. No, that’s not okay. I’m out.

No, but friends getting together and wanting to hero dose out and push the envelope. That’s Terrence McKenna. Hey, good.

Let them do that. And then you look at, you know, how are they going to work with uninitiated people? Totally different scenario.

And then look at that and address that in your own way. You know, I’ve had people criticize me for the nature of my practice. Hey, great for them.

If they don’t like it, let them go another way. I stay within the boundaries. We teach that are what I understand as integrity, maximizing the freedom and responsibility of each individual participant as we go through the process together.

I was taught in like the forest of the most expanded way possible, like, Hey, maestro, loco or muerto, like figure it out. So, you know, you can decide for yourself what that looks like and it doesn’t have to be all or nothing. And it doesn’t have to be a huge conundrum.

You have to be very careful yourself in the use of the plant medicines about your own nervous system and your own wellbeing while others could be doing whatever. There are going to be many casualties in the psychedelic Renaissance over the next 10 to 20 years. The first big casualties group is going to be what I call partial dissociative disorder.

This is a people that don’t really stop dissociating after a big dissociative event. They don’t really ground and re-associate after it. After that, the next group of casualties are going to be people who go way too far and become super delusional.

These are people who take large, large doses on multiple occasions in those states, come up with a brand-new matrix of beliefs, and it doesn’t all add up and they become super delusional. That’s the second group you’re going to see a lot of people of. So, there’s going to be a lot of people have this really low grade, that’s why I call it first, but lots of them, this low grade partial dissociative disorder.

A lot of it’s going to come from misuse of ketamine and misuse of what other people think of as safe psychedelics. It’s going to happen there. And then the next is going to be these people that are going down like hero dose direction and they don’t know how to manage it and they don’t know what they’re going to confront in those states.

And they haven’t really been trained to navigate those states. And they’re going to end up coming up to spirit of why Nick was asking about. They’re going to end up meeting bits in consciousness.

They’re going to want to dominate them and vice versa. And you want to steer clear of all of that. You want to stay Sanctuary and, you know, both of those states you want to steer clear of.

And learn. This is the learning you learn by jumping in with them and deciding for yourself. And you learn, you know, I have lots of people go, Master, let’s drink way more tonight.

And I’m like, you guys can. Hey, I, you know, I learned to tend the flop. You guys do that.

Let’s see what happens. Let’s stay Sanctuary. So, you’re welcome.

My pleasure. James. All right.

One more. James, I got to go.

[James]

Hey, this is actually a follow up to what was just asked. And so, I’m just now, I mean, I just signed up for this group and I’ve never done a satin ceremony before. But I’m wondering, like, you know, if I don’t think I have any predispositions or anything, but it was, is there an antidote for possibly avoiding a dissociative permanence after coming out of it or delusions coming out of it?

Like, how is it, how am I supposed to know if I could potentially be affected by that?

[Hamilton]

Sure. We practice in a method I created called Sanctuary, which is the best way. And if you’re joining recently, go into the library and go back to the very first teachings on that, because that’s the core to how we practice so that you have the power to create Sanctuary.

Even if you’re with other practitioners, shamans, anybody, it’s, you know, your bubble and your field and your protection and your safety. And the second piece of it is afterwards, if you feel like you’ve had a dissociative event and you’re not really coming back, there are associative practices to do. And you just have to do them.

They’re part of integration. And the reason why a lot of people will not come fully back or be in this kind of partial dissociative state is because they don’t know those practices and they won’t know to do them. And, you know, they won’t take the time necessary.

And we always say that any kind of plant medicine event isn’t just the event itself, it’s the event and the integration afterwards until you’re back into an associated state, which sometimes is a day and sometimes it’s a week and sometimes it’s a month, depending on the kind of series of ceremonies you’ve had. And that’s why integration is so important. And those are really associative exercises.

They’re grounding exercises, feeling your body, feeling the weight, training to feel the weight of the body, walking on the ground, feeling your feet and learning to turn fear down because fear is also its own nature of dissociative state. And then in and around the culture, we believe in, instead of going to like the need for hero doses, we need the right amount of medicine. So, there’s this whole like ego nature of bigger, bigger, bigger, better.

And we just don’t think that’s the way that it is. It’s actually found the right amounts of the different kinds of medicines in the dose and learn about the medicines in smaller doses before you venture into larger doses so that you have some experience with that. And, you know, that’s important in how you learn to sit for yourself.

And also, when you choose the people to do this with, that they’re respectful of your choice of dose. And so, all those things help. And then, you know, we know how to navigate this safely.

Yeah, you’re welcome. All right, guys. Thank you so much.

I appreciate you all. Thank you for a beautiful day today. Enjoy the weekend and much love.